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迷失的爱{ April 12, 2010 @ 4:57 pm } · { 星星小故事 } 
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看着熟睡中的他 她笑了 眼泪也流下了

有多少个夜晚 他拥抱着她才可以入睡

甜蜜的感觉还依稀存在 想到着 她又笑了

但如今 她望着熟悉的背影 伸出的手慢慢收回

反转身 她不想让他听到哭泣的声音

窗外透进微微的月光

她默默祈祷

多么希望时间可以倒流

回到那一年 那一天 他最爱她的那个冬天

他们曾经如此的相爱 童话故事的结局不都是幸福的吗？

她相信 还是有转弯得余地 只要她一直笑着 一直为他笑着

因为她的世界只剩下 爱他

I came across the blog above, wanted to leave my comment immediately but somehow the browser did not register my comment. Tried so many times, really felt frustrated. BUT it's ok, I can just leave the comment on my long time not updated blog and I hope she really sees it and feels what I felt. Here's it:

他，看着这篇文章，深深地被感动，泪也快要掉了．如何才能让她知道，他心中只有她？永远都爱她， 希望她时时刻刻都笑着，因为这样，他的世界，才是真的.

静茹&情歌 别再为他流泪

情歌 - 梁静茹

作词:陈没 作曲:伍冠谚 编曲。陈建骐

时光是琥珀 泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽 也磨成沙漏
青春的上游 白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头 潺潺的溜走

命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽 寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由

慢动作 缱绻胶卷 重播默片 定格一瞬间
我们在 告别的演唱会 说好不再见

你写给我 我的第一首歌
你和我 十指紧扣 默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有 我这一首情歌
轻轻的 轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久

命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽 寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由

长镜头 越拉越远 越来越远 事隔好几年
我们在 怀念的演唱会 礼貌的吻别

你写给我 我的第一首歌
你和我 十指紧扣 默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有 我这一首情歌
轻轻的 轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久

陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
舍不得 短短副歌 心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有 我下一首情歌
生命宛如 静静的 相拥的河
永远 天长地久

In a Transition...

A brand new job, brand new working environment, brand new colleagues, brand new boss... Yes, I will be quitting my job 3 weeks later, reason is that...

Hmm... Sounds familiar? But it's damn true. It will happen again... Life's like this, anything can happen, nothing unusual about this, least for myself.

It's not because of my current company is not good, but it's not that great either. But from my current employment, I learned a lot, especially about this industry, acquired/upgraded some skills, made some new friends(mostly newbies as the company is new) in a short span of 1 month.

The jobscope is ok i.e. designing, programming, and generate CNC code for machines to run and produce parts that will be asssembled into company's product. The job is not complex(if you familiarized after few training or if you know to design using CAD) and I think I will become bored after months of doing it. This is one of the reason I found that this job wouldn't suit me, although there are other reasons like salary, company's policy etc.

My manager is a nice guy and helps to teach the new guys a lot when it comes to the work matters. It was hard to tender to him regarding my resignation, he was shock and asked the reasons behind it. Then he asked if I would try it out for few months first but I couldnt do it with new job on hand. I was to give him 24 hours notice as my new boss asked me to start work as soon as possible. A guy(5 months working) just left before the day I resigned and my manager would want time to fill in the vacancy, so I have to compromise in between old and new company(it's a bit awkward) and leave at the end of the month.

My new job is actually my previous job function and my new boss was my ex- boss's ex-staff. The interview with him was fast in terms of him making decision to hire me. But the process itself looked not so simple as he went through my subjects in University (first experience although interviewer should be like this) and asked about my CGPA etc. I didnt apply for his company and I was clueless about how he got my contact. May be through my ex-colleagues or my ex-boss and another possibility is the interviewer from another company I met before being interviewed by him. I am eager to find out but may be time will tell...

The benefits offered is better than my current job but not quite comparing to my previous job. The global situation still not up to par yet and job is still hard to come by. But what's more to ask if one could find his interest in the things he does.

So I will be on my journey again. Until then, I am in a transition...

A Brand New Job

A brand new job, brand new working environment, brand new colleagues, brand new boss... Yes, I quitted my job 3 weeks ago, reason was... (I don’t want to talk about it anymore) It wasn’t easy (few deep thoughts) nor hard (one resignation letter) and here I am, with a new job in my hand.

This new job, indeed a new factory itself, offers me a brand new job scopes. It involves manufacturing field, a field that I didn’t want to venture into after my graduation (not really interested in that field) but how ironic life can be. This new job though, has a hidden agenda (a 28% dip in salary). This economic slowdown, jobs are hard to come by, who would resist?

When I first broke out the news of my resignation, most people would say: “Har, during this kind of economy situation?”, “Why don’t you find a new job before quitting?” etc. I told my family, but they didn’t really against it, they accepted my decision (which I am thankful). But the person who knew I would be quitting was my very supportive girlfriend (thanks for listening to my complaints, supportive of me and giving me advices that I think would hard to come by if I had not meet you). Thanks for everything (I love you).

This new job position of mine, Mechanical Design Engineer, which I guess will have me to sit in front of computer and design. I don’t know whether I will like it (familiar with designing building services but designing a component?).

I have to wait and see...

I Will Be...

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

:-)                                                                             :-)

Happy New Year 2009 !

My 2009 New Year resolutions:

1. To be a better person (To be good to my family, to see them happy and healthy is the most important. To my darling, I am really glad that you are here with me, I am very happy every time I be with you, you were the most wonderful person I met in the year of 2008 and one of the most important person in my life ;-p. I love you, so much so much...)

2. Exercise more to stay healthy (Hmm... Didn’t used to exercise regularly like I was in secondary school. Reasons: University life didn’t permit me to do that (I also didn’t know the exact reason). Now into the working life and hopefully I will continue to stay healthy and happy. Jogging, badminton, weight lifting and etc. Any activity categorized as exercise will do ;-) May be I will get at least a tight abs, if not a six pack, hehe...)


3. Advance my career (This... what to say? At least I am more experienced than I was eight months ago)

4. To have a calm and sharp mind (I have been through sleepless night over the past years over some matters that I eventually overcame. Calm mind sooths our soul.)


5. Say thanks to God everyday (Yeah, I did it over the past year whenever I could and will continue to say my prayer everyday)

Bye Bye 2008
Hello 2009

NO FATE BUT WHAT WE MAKE!

All Well End Well?

It’s the end of the year, again... I have been quite busy with this job earlier but it’s coming to a slowdown. May be it’s because of the global economy meltdown (later may be vaporized). Nothing much to do in the office nowadays i.e. attending meetings, modifying drawing, replying/ report to boss, processing contractors’ claims, searching for some information, calling him or her, etc. I assumed this field supposed to be kind of technical but it’s not even close to it, may be it’s because of the company size or the boss is such of a technical wizard that seems to be generally perceived that he needs not to be so technical. So? What to do, just follow orders...

I was thinking of upgrading current knowledge in this field when there are some spaces between works. Sometimes, I don’t even have an idea of where to start i.e. to study a sub- field (Fire Fighting) that has a limitation (at least the field is not so wide) on the job scope or another one (Air Conditioning) that currently I have only touched the tip of an iceberg. Both also under my job scope, which makes me have headache. Current strategy of mine is to focus on the most used sub- field (i.e. just absorb WHATEVER). Few days back, boss threw a set of drawing and I was told to have a look in Air Conditioning Electricity Consumption. He told me when the times are bad next year; he will need me to train more on this (Boss really want to train me? I also not that sure... Why he would and why he wouldn’t?) Talking about training, I really don’t know the last card in the hand of my boss (I say this because he only threw drawing to me, that’s called training? I wondered, still wondering...)

Next year (I think) the office will not be so busy, because large projects have been subjected to temporary stagnation, all have been tagged KIV. Lately also been thinking of my monthly income, hope the boss will spare us from the cruel reality of recession and salary reduction, may be a VSS? If the working days are to be reduced to 4 days/week, I think it would be ok as long as the salary cut is acceptable. Just 8 months into working, already need a break to refresh myself, rearrange, put all things in order, and come out a better more readied person.

This, that, this, that... Until when? Anyway, who cares? No use of even to care, life goes on everyday, anyway have to...

Change Your World To Change The World

Congratulation to Barack Obama; America’s first non- white President. He will become the 44th President of the USA on January 20th 2009 and he has vowed to change the world. Will he capable of changing the world? He probably can, as the world most powerful figure. From the way he speaks, he’s full of confident, least to say. Another way to put it, he definitely has the leadership quality, already proved by leading his party and his supporters to victory in the election.

So he will change the world, at least in some way. But HOW EXACTLY will he change the world? Today, he named his economic team, which comprises of... (I don’t know who). Anyway, his priorities (known to me) to change the world are by pulling back the falling economy back on track, creating 5 million jobs by 2010 and withdrawing troops out of Iraq and Afghan in order to restore peace to the two countries.

Global effects, felt so strong anytime there’s something happened in the world. Barack Obama’s election came in time (may be some parties didn’t get the chance to see it through), to stop a deepening wound, if not to heal it completely. I am eager to see, with his characteristic and methods, to help the world to become a better place.

Back on our soil, 9 months have passed, promises have been made: To have at least 85% WIMAX coverage over Penang, to boost economic of Penang by attracting big foreign companies (they are creating jobs, but Penang really need them at this time?), to make Penang a World Heritage Site so that tourism will bloom like flower under the sun (?) and etc. Seems like will be busy, at least for another 3 years.

With many things occupying, who cares about the Sungai Nyior Toll Collection?

Light Headedness...

Woke up this morning, feeling not quite good, may be because of last night’s incident which I didn’t mean to cause. Sometimes this happens in a relationship, whether is with family, spouses or friends. Love gives us happiness but nothing’s free in this world or put it in other way, “give and take”. So, love will bring some unwanted feelings too, besides giving us happiness. Anyway, I still... love you.

Arriving at office today, using a different job designation, today as a draughtsman. I hate doing jobs draughtsman does, sitting in front of the computer and repeating copy and paste commands based on commented drawing. Lucky enough, I am not a draughtsman, so I saw something on the design that should be highlighted to my superior. Well, still I am not lucky enough... What I got was that I should just follow the drawing and submit for another comment. I know my superior’s style, just follow and if people questioned, just say: “I followed your instruction what”. (Urm...) Anyone smells something wrong here? But he’s my superior, has experience of 16 times the experience of mine. What to do? I have to follow and complete my job (jobs at my hand that are waiting to be settled will look pity on me). Later turned around I have to modify it again, need to have a f*** off at being so pissed.

Done the job, but not completed (not like doing it though), light headedness struck without a warning. Felt not really well, thought of getting half day to take a nap at home. But times seem to be pushing me, after lunch, thought of just wait for 4 hours more and save an effort to take leave. Just about to get to 3pm, head started to feel heavy, couldn’t really concentrate, so just took an operation manual and study. It was correct move though, as I found some info in it. Hoped the time would fly, but time is ticking... Slowly... Slowly... So slow...

So? At 5.30pm sharp, there I went, out of the door, taking the operation manual with me? It will stay in my car probably for the night as I think my brain no longer in the mood for “read”. What’s I done today at my workplace? I done something, just something not really made my day at work.

I just don’t like to sit in the office for a whole day. Tomorrow probably better, morning site testing and afternoon site meeting, that probably will occupy me for a whole day, CHEER!

Workaholic

NOW, it’s has been 7 months since I stepped into the world of workaholics (People who goes to work everyday). So... Am I a workaholic? I wanted to be one, wanted to work my way up the corporate ladder. That was my thinking before I got myself into this world, which is different from what I used to perceive in my mind while I was in my study years.

How to be considered as a workaholic? Am I gonna work myself to death and be considered as one? Or am I satisfy with all the work I executed and in turn be considered as a successful person, if not a workaholic?

1. Workaholic = Successful?
2. Successful = Workaholic?

1st equation seems to be reasonable. If one person works day and night, focus his attention onto his work, which turns him into a workaholic. From a workaholic, he then should be able to cope within his job scope and whatever the f*** his boss threw at him. He would be able to, at least settle it, no matter whatever the f*** he might have to sacrifice. Person, who gets things done (well...) well or not well, is considered successful... At least in a slightly tight scope of thinking, that particular person is capable of doing his job.

2nd equation, is it true? Nope! Successful person need not to be a workaholic, so this DAMN equation (1st equation) of being a workaholic is deemed to be waste of human efforts.

(Urm...)Sadly, my current working world does not have a ladder to climb (small office, short corporate hierarchy). But doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t advance and be successful in whatever jobs I do. Sometimes it’s hard to do whatever we do that hasn’t been done by ourselves before. As we go along, it might be getting easier or the other way around, probably because of a limit that we set to ourselves or that we have achieved our limit. Since there’s no limit to the limit of self satisfaction and fulfillment, so I probably assume sometimes that we set a limit to ourselves, giving excuses. Excuses are used to cover- up our shortcoming, our incapability, our tendency to procrastinate, so that we can save our face at the end of the day and assume that we have really done all we could.

Going back is not an option (which means I can’t go back), marching forward is not an option too (which means I can’t move forward?). In this case, I have no option (not going back and moving forward) but to keep my current state of, moving on...

The economy will be bad, won’t it? Anything we can do? Probably not... Anyway, just stay put to pull it through...

Jay's Talent is Gifted!

音乐的力量， 非一般的魔力。

音乐的力量， 非一般的魔力。。。

简单的词句， 好听的璇律， 勾起许多回忆。。。

听一听， 换一换心情。。。

突然觉得快乐， 都一直在身旁。。。

快乐， 有时候。。。

真的是那么简单。。。

Working Life

I have been born into the working life after my graduation and now I am 4 and ½ months old. Since being in this life, everyday I go to work, come back home and repeating the routine the next day.

Everyday in the office, my jobs are to do design (facing the computer makes me sick nowadays); attending meeting (make me feel like a secretary, jotting down the minutes and matters discussed in the meeting); attending site inspection (yeah, somehow I like it); replying to my boss comment (Wow, he writes a lot of comments, sometimes in the traffic, ranging from work related to work- unrelated); studying some drawing and documents (to get precious information) and the ultimatum i.e. face- off with my boss (this part was hardest and it’s getting harder and hard...).

Although I like my current job, but I still feel like there’s some parts missing or there’s a lot extras that make me feel that I don’t have the capacity to take it yet. The parts that are missing, I think is because of myself, lacking the basics, be it in this field (may be the time has yet to come) or as an engineer. The latter always makes me ask, how can I be an engineer if I don’t have the quality to be one? Though I have been graduated from an engineering school, does that mean I am one of them? Was it all about exams, only made me studied solely for that purpose, in order to be able to be graduated from tertiary level? Those subjects that I have taken, in my opinion, merely touched the surface of the deep sea of knowledge. It implicates me into emptiness each time thinking about this, though I gained few pieces of paper, as recognition for spending my 4 years time to earn it, nothing much, nothing less. I missed those days, when I wasn’t doing what was supposed to done for what was meant to be done.

Working life, step by step, day by day, it will teach me, step by step, day by day, what I ought to know. Quoting my boss’s words of what it takes to be a person like himself, he always says (most of time in a harsh way, sometimes in a nice manner): “It takes me 30 years to learn and I am still learning”; “I know you don’t have the experience, what I learned the hard way, I let you know now”, “Learn from mistake is the best way to learn”; “In this field, it’s 10% about technical, the rest is all about how you manage people”; “See, how I play politic with those people”; “You must always write comments and come back to me, then I will know what you don’t know”; “You see, I write a lot of comments, even waiting the traffic light, I also write”; “You always look, but you don’t see”; “You understand the English, it’s not enough”; “I wake up everyday 3 am in the morning and start doing my work”; “I hope you don’t mind, working life is like this”; etc.

Saw an article on working life and job- hopping:

“The Two-year Rule

I have a two-year rule I tell my staff and potential employees. The two-year rule is this: you must be willing to commit mentally to spend at least two years in the company before you quit. The reason is this; you need to deal with the learning curve. If you job-hop too often, you learn nothing substantial.

For me, it takes you at least a year to know the ins and outs of the company. Another year before you can eventually be truly productive in adding value to the company. To see the true results of your contribution to the company, for me it takes at least two years. So, if you are more prone to job-hopping and career success is on your mind, then it is time to rethink.”

So, I am not going anywhere in the near future? No one knows... Anyway, I am just a new born...

Inconsolable

"Baby, I would tell you everytime you leave, I'm inconsolable..."

From This Moment On

你是我的眼

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前

My Playstation Portable

FF7- Crisis Core


System Menu


PSP

My new PSP console- just bought it last Saturday at RM 900 (4GB Memory Card) c/w accessories i.e. ear phone, AC adapter, crystal case, screen protector, car charger, UMD(Universal Media Disc) case- although I don’t use UMDs to play (Original cracked version- Yeah!), cable for TV play (only support LCD and Plasma TV, sigh...). Becoming a member of the shop I bought it from, at a discount price of RM20, I can download 3 free games into my PSP for a year. Normal price is RM 2/game loading into PSP charged by the shop plus a 25% discount for any item in the shop except consoles and memory card. But the games can be downloaded online too, which is time and electricity consuming.

There are a variety of games to choose from, now I have FIFA 2008, Final Fantasy VII- Crisis Core, Tekken, Transformers, Iron Man, Ghost Rider, Silent Hill, Grand Theft Auto-Vice City Stories, and Metal Gear Solid. For now, just playing FF7- Crisis Core as it is a popular game for PSP.

I used to have PS- One, now spoilt. The graphic was not as nice. PS II now priced at only RM 425 while PS III is at RM 1350. Nintendo Wii priced at RM 1000++ too but the play style requires motion, and the games are not my cup of tea. But somebody bought it too, when I was buying PSP. The sales is good for game console, from the shop sales person, many units of PSP and PS III too are selling like hot cakes. Kids are rich; ahem... their parents are rich nowadays.

FF7 has nice graphic and a little different of game play when in battle mode from those version for PS- One. Although it doesn’t summon GFs as in FF7, but they still appears in the game play, as monsters.

I think the game will be long as I played the FF7 before, but it was nice. May be later to download it again and try it in PSP. It is nice though, hopefully to have a plasma or LCD screen later, hehe...

The End Of A Beginning...

The beginning of a beginning, 4 years ago...
The end of a beginning, 4 months ago...
The beginning of another beginning, 4 months ago...
The end of another beginning, the beginning of another beginning...

Those were words that I left once in a friend's blog. Now it seems meaningful to me, especially tonight... After tomorrow, I will be graduated. Couldn't believe time passed by so soon, helpless to watch it passed by...

Undoing All The Damages...

Broken lamp...



Bonnet, mudguard and front bumper, all gone...


 



Rear bumper, scratched...


Dont really know what this is, but it came out anyway...


This... Is it for towing purpose? Came out in case it needed to be towed? Strange though...I didnt need it


Dont dare to open the bonnet, scared it would be unclosable... I opened the boot though, and it was UNCLOSABLE...


Uncle, I am sorry for you too... Really sorry... For your impromptu slow reaction and stupidity for not following the law... Sucks!

Bad Luck Lingers On...

Today, bad luck from yesterday lingers on... Came into the office this morning, my boss, as his usual self, blah blah blah... Made me thinking I was stupid for coming to office on Sunday and settled the work even after I had my car crashed. Even coming to office on Sunday was a stupid mistake; however somebody have to be stupid anyway... But my car is just about one month old...

As I thought I would be able to bring my car to the workshop by 10am, I parked my car without parking ticket. Normally the officers would not come so often to check the area below my office. But who knows, it is not my day, so I got a “Saman”, my first even though I used to break the rules “safely”. So, upon seeing the “ticket”, I knew it was IT!

What could I do? Just leave the Saman there, so that I wont be issued a second one. RM 30? Parking ticket is just RM 3. I ran out of it, forgot to buy, forgot to put, thought it would be just awhile, not much thought left, must waste time and effort to settle it, in Bandar Perda!

After that, rushing through to complete drawings and attending meeting in the afternoon, I came back to the office, exhausted and had to figure out what was the next step to do for my project as the owner made some decision in the last minute. I don’t have enough experience, so I would refer to my boss, so be prepared to be shot, sometimes it was hard, even die standing...

How strange, I touched the tap in office toilet, it came off. I went to buy, the shop that was supposedly to be open, closed? Hell... My boss came in, blah blah blah again, for nothing; just proceed with what I should do. I always wondering why he likes to blah so much, may be due to his old age, or is he thinking for my own good. Hmm... hard to disguise, probably impossible to disguise, only time will tell, mostly after 3 to 4 years... The truth will be revealed around that time, hopefully I was not stupid.

After work, I drove my car to the workshop in Bukit Minyak. Quite far and in a rush, but I left office at 5.15pm, so until the road was jammed, I was able to reached the workshop unobstructed. After settling the documents, the foreman wanted to send me out to the main road to be fetched by my friend. How strange, he drove his car in front of me, I got in, then he wasn’t able to start the engine. Damn, no fuel. I got off, the sky was raining. He came with another car to get me out of there.

Now, at home... Head starts to ache, I just want to take a bath and conclude the night... Hopefully it will be better tomorrow, just better, nothing much to hope for...